Viddler

Answer to Meredeth's question:
Ohdoctah, my Doctor,
Your words are so kind and soothing and your presence vital. Well, I'm not trying to get through to you as Holly Mary and, needless to say, when such a problem is created I know I am at fault primarily. But, I swear to God, I play by the rules and never hit below the belt. Those are my morals and those surrounding me know it. Unfortunately. I just want to know how a girl who has f....d every pole in the neighbourhood (and in each neighbourhood she's ever been to) takes pride in it and brags about it. Why when she sniffs that someone is down in the dumps, her face lights up and can't wait to give him/her a little push to go further down, or better, never get up on his/her feet again. As for the guy I'm in love with, I never told him. I showed him. He is objectively more good-looking than me and considered a catch. I don't think I fell for his looks. I fell for the fact that besides his appearance, he hasn't got above himself, he's not conceited, and generally doesn't see himself as a rooster in a hen-hoose. Even more, I loved that he is so smart he can see right through anyone, he even knows who have been talking negatively about him behind his back and treats them accordingly. He saw right through me too, that's why I caught his eye. Then on, we didn't have to talk much to communicate. We both knew what we were thinking of each other. It's the inhibitions about my looks and my absorbedness in things in my life which demand immediate solutions that held me back. I know me wanting him is not enough. I also know, he doesn't want me as badly as I want him, because he'd have done something effective to get me. But I'm so damn inhibited as a person, and as if this wasn't enough, I found myself in the most inappropriate environment. I don't know if I've really given him the chance to approach me, but I know he attempted to. So, tell me, what do you understand when a person doesn't even say farewell to you when you leave for good? Instead, makes herself sca