Viddler

You have seen the beautiful sides of Russia.
Now. In 1917 when the Bolshevik Revolution turned Russia into an Atheistic Communist country, millions of people were murdered to effect this governmental conversion. My nephew, Mark, lived in Russia for a bit as he was wrestling there along with his high school, prior to the democracy it is today. Now, where on earth do you discover that the atheists of that country espoused atheism to enjoy themselves? Millions revolted against this militant atheism and destroyed it in Russia. China will follow and already is willing to throw off this Mongol Yoke. Will you kindly take inventory of what the definition of atheism is and its ramifications that deny any sort of enjoying oneself to espouse it?

I think if you want to be, whoever you want to be, you should leave the pro and con God argument out of it. God is not reaching out his tentacles to convince you to be one way or another. Maybe those about you are not the best Christians to give great Christian example; hence, not being able to see how the Christian body moves, you are unable to clearly gage whether you or they fit in. Suicide seems to me a disease of the will to privately pervert mercy to oneself, as if one could take oneself here or there. We all do not even know where we came from other than our parents. Where to after that? I regret posting so much on YT concerning this topic which was not addressed to me specifically but to "napalmtube."

I wish I had viewed this video on Viddler first. I would probably have vlogged much on this topic that is so sensitive to me because I am concerned that if you do not get your way you may be tempted to commit suicide, like a temper tantrum. And please, I think your views on suicide would change if you used the word as a noun rather than a verb. Such a handsome man; such dangerous thoughts. Que sera sera (what will be will be).

I do not believe you believe in suicide, but are willing to live and let live. When you told me not to private my friends, subscriptions, and subscribers, it was because keeping them hidden was a useless venture because they are not "mine" to keep. Brilliant. True. Hiding them is an action of social abortion. This same act of social abortion is the equivalent of suicide. It appears that I am the one who probably should be monitored since I am the one who is suffering the action-reaction of this movement. So, you're good. And I see I need help to open up. A lot.

I would never report anyone to the police or authorities, or even a doctor for mental health treatment. I would just direct you or anyone with problems to the bottle (alcohol) and a musical instrument to help work out the blues. I know so many suicidal people. The serious ones are the ones who ALWAYS have to do with money and prestige connected to money. I usually step away from those kind to give them more rope for the hangin' cause I don't want to follow. But I would encourage anyone not to commit to suicide, but to hang on for one more day, if only to see what is over the mountain of despair.

I would not engage in a head game either of go kill yourself.
I would just be as honest as I can to myself.
I'd be true to myself.
And if the suicidant did in fact end life, that is on their head.
If they are not going to care about MY wellbeing,
by not getting over their IMMENSE ego, I will not care for theirs.
then I will allow myself to step out of their light so that they can
pursue to commence the fulfillment of their ego:
the perversion of the application of mercy to one self.
The correct application of mercy is almsgiving, fasting, and prayer.
If they are beyond the simple joys of mercy,
they are beyond any sort of reaffirmation of what it means to be human.
They will die in denial of their own existence, ironically, after a lifetime
of proving they exist.

Oh, my God! You took off your glasses! Your eyes are so big and black and hypnotizing dreamy. Watching makes me want to fall asleep in peace.